Hug away sad feels || Dakota & Liz 

dakotamariewhite:

When Liz wrapped her arms around Dakota, she could have pushed her away. She could have just told her to fuck off like she did with most people who hurt her. But she didn’t want to push her away. She stayed still for a moment before she hugged back, wrapping her arms tightly around the slender girl. “It’s okay,” she whispered eventually. It wasn’t really okay, but it seemed like the proper response and she didn’t want to be rude. She remembered the penny and tried to remember where she had put it. It was probably somewhere still in the pocket of her pants. The thing is, she didn’t remember where she put them. 

Dakota shrugged at Liz’s question, not really knowing the answer herself. “I’m feeling fine. Better than ever.” She stretched the lie a bit too much and smiled when Liz pulled up the corners of her lips. She hugged her back once again, enjoying her warmth and comfort. But she knew that she couldn’t let herself fall into the trap again. Her she was, complimenting her and making her feel like there was something, but then she was going to just walk all over her again. She pulled out of the hug slowly, not angrily, to answer her question. “Kind of. Yes. They do. They make me feel a lot better.” She looked down at her feet and shook her head. “But you’re doing it again. You’re telling me I’m pretty… and the penny.. and you’re just leading in me on again. It’s fucking confusing.” She looked back up and Liz with a questioning expression. “Can’t you just tell me or something. It feels like people are just playing games with me and it’s all so confusing.. I just don’t get it.” She swallowed back the tears, not wanting to cry in front of her. “I’m just not good with any of this.” 

Liz sucked her bottom lip into her mouth, watching the girl figet in front of her, looking down and shaking her head. “I… Dakota. It’s just who I am. I like to compliment people, definitely when they deserve it.” She cupped her cheek lightly again, her eyes fluttering down as she brushed her thumb along her cheek bone. “I’m not good with any of this either. I’m just… just Liz. Liz who doesn’t do feelings and never has relationships. I don’t know what you want me to say. I told you before that I like you, and I was honest when I told you that. I do like you. It’s just… just not in the way you want me to like you, I think.”

She released Dakota but took her hand and pulled her along, outside. “Come on, we’re going for a walk. Through your garden because you’re not wearing any shoes. Lemme join!” She quickly kicked of her shoes then tugged at Dakota’s hand and made her walk with her through the grass. “Look, can I promise you that I will be open to that kind of liking? If it happens, I won’t stop it. But it’s not like I’m going to lie to your face now and say I’m falling for you when I don’t think I am.” She frowned a little and looked at Dakota from the side. “Do you still want to hang out with me after all of this? I can get out of your hair in a second if you really want me to…”

(Source: lizjohnson)